New Year, New You?

Happy New Year, guys! I hope you’ve had a wonderful holiday season. I’ve been on a mini-hiatus from most of my social media sites. Actually, it’s been rather nice not being attached to my phone or laptop. Honestly, this is the most I’ve used my laptop in a while. 😉

Anyway, with it being the new year, resolutions are sure to be made. Normally, I have a long list of things I want to accomplish and change, etc etc, and although I do have a list, it’s more of a wish list-no, a prayer list. There are things I want to pray about and see where God leads. It’s things that I want in my life. And yes, one of those things is weight loss.

I’ve been advocating loving yourself as you are, and I won’t back down on that. I think that even though we love ourselves for what size we are and all, there is room for change if that’s what you want. I want to emphasize that last bit. I want you to know that you shouldn’t feel like you have to change. This has to be something that you want to do.

And, I want to do this. It’s not about the weight though. I’ve embraced myself and who I am. I love myself, and as conceited as that sounds, it’s true. I’ve learned to love myself for me. I don’t feel like I have to change. I want to change.

There will be people who disagree with me. That’s okay. I’m not doing this for them. I’m doing this for me. I want to feel better in my own skin. It honestly is about health for me. And, if I don’t succeed this year, that’s fine too. It’s not my main goal. Truly. I have more goals. More things that I want to achieve, but I also want to be healthier. Again, I want to emphasize that it’s not about my size and weight. It’s about me.

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I don’t know if you guys saw this or not, but before Christmas, I was on one of my author friend’s blog, Stacy Eaton. I was discussing the fact that we shouldn’t let our weight and how we perceive ourselves get in the way of getting in photos with our families and friends and making memories! We shouldn’t be afraid of how we look. We shouldn’t loathe ourselves. We should love ourselves, even if we think we’re a work in progress!

So, this year, is one of your “resolutions” to be a newer version of yourself? Or are you going to be the same ole you but with goals that might change your outer appearance?

Don’t think about this as becoming a new you. Don’t do it! You’re perfect. You’re beautiful. You’re awesome. But you’re also entitled to change.

#loveyourself and #youarebeautiful mean so much more than staying the same. It’s about embracing yourself as you are but also seeing your value enough to change if that’s what you want to do. The main thing is this, you’re awesome whether you want to change or whether you don’t. Don’t let anyone tell you otherwise. 🙂

I know this post may seem like a contradiction in itself, but honestly, I don’t think it is. See, my opinion about myself isn’t fleeting. Sure, I have my days and I’m not perfect, but there’s one thing that I’ve learned. I’m beautiful. God created me this way for a reason, but it’s okay to want to be healthier. And that’s what I want. I need to drink more water and cut back on my sodas and sweets. I have vices just like everyone else, and I’m going to try and fix those vices. That being said, if I can’t keep up with this “resolution”, I won’t hate myself. I’ll just keep trying and continue to be me.

I don’t see this as a new me project. I see this as an improvement on my already awesome self. 😉 So, please. Continue to love yourself and work on that. Don’t think you have to change. But if it’s something you want to do, don’t think that you can’t do it because it will make you seem like you don’t love yourself. It’s quite the opposite. You love yourself enough to make minor improvements. Again, I’m not trying to contradict myself. I really do want you guys to understand that loving yourself is the most important thing, but it is okay to make changes. We aren’t expected to stay the same. Humans change. We grow. This could be part of that growth.

So, new year, new you? Or new year, same you (with minor improvements)?

P.S. To read my last blog post titled the same (which I’d forgotten about), you can read it here. It’s from 2015. 🙂

God wants you to know you’re beautiful.

That’s been my thing lately, sharing posts and Bible verses to hopefully get people to know and understand that they are beautiful. That God loves them no matter what they think about themselves, no matter what they’ve done. Yet, somehow, I’ve forgotten to remind myself of that.

The week before last, I couldn’t look in a mirror without thinking about the things I wanted to change. I couldn’t say a prayer without asking God to help me lose weight, to help me look better. I tried to play it off as wanting to be healthier (which I do honestly want), but deep down, I knew it was because of my looks, because of the fat on my body. I didn’t want it anymore. I didn’t want to look like me. What scares me most is that I didn’t even realize what I’d been doing until last Sunday.

I know what you must be thinking. How can we trust this girl who can’t even trust herself when it comes to spreading this important message?

Everyone has a weak moment (or two). I have more than I like to admit. So, trust me when I say that this is an uphill battle. Sometimes you slip and fall, but sometimes the trail is easy. The past few weeks I’ve slipped.

I don’t like admitting it. I want you all to think I’m perfect and I don’t struggle with this. But we all know that’s not the case. None of us are perfect, especially me. I would love to change a lot about myself, but I first have to remember who I am, what type of woman I am, and Who loves me.

I was reminded of that last Sunday. I was worshiping God during our worship service when a lovely lady from my church walked up to me and said one sentence, “God wants you to know you’re beautiful.”

God wants you to know you're beautiful.

I knew that. I knew He thought it, but I had forgotten it. When she told me this, it just hit me, an overwhelming knowledge that God would do anything to get my attention and let me know that He loved me and thought I was beautiful.

I’ve had to have many of the meetings with God because I let the world, Satan, and myself get in the way. This wasn’t the first time that He had to get my attention, and it shouldn’t be that way. I should know better. I should do better.

But I’m human, and luckily, God knows that. He understands that, but it’s my job-it’s our job-to try and fix how we see ourselves. Not fix ourselves but how we see ourselves. We don’t have to be content trying to fix every little thing about us, though I’m not saying that you can’t change. I just want you to know that obsessing over our size, our looks, etc is doing us more harm than realizing that God loves us for who we are.

I’m not sure when or how I’ll fix how I see myself, but what I do know is that God loves me as I am, and that is all that matters.

God loves you as you are and thinks you’re beautiful, too. Let’s try and not forget about that. Take that uphill journey one cautious step at a time, but we have to take it. We have to do it. Not for anyone else but for you, for God.