Who am I?

Sometimes, I seem to forgot just who I am.

Auntie? Sister? Daughter?

Author? Proofreader? Editor?

Friend? Foe?

Who am I?

I wear many hats, and sometimes, it can get overwhelming. Just who am I? I’ve forgotten how to be me, but there’s one thing about me that never changes…

I’m an heir. I walk in God’s authority. I’m His princess. I am beautiful in His sight.

I AM HIS.

And no matter how I feel–that is all I need to remember. It’s enough.

In fact, it’s more than enough. I shouldn’t let anything else define me. The only thing that should define us is who we are in Christ, and I let things get in the way of that. I shouldn’t have, and I’m going to do my best to never let that happen again.

Sometimes, I feel like I’m in the shadows of my parents’ ministry, that I’ll never live up to them. But God didn’t give me the same ministry as them, so I shouldn’t compare myself with them. I shouldn’t compare myself with anyone.

I am who God has called me to be, and that is what I should be happy with.

It’s hard to remember that at times. God doesn’t call me to be like you, and He hasn’t called you to be like me. We each have a different calling, and that’s okay. That’s more than okay. It’s what makes us unique. It’s what makes us able to work in the Kingdom.

So today, remember who you are. You’re a child of God, and THAT is what matters.

Who am I? I’m God’s. I was uniquely, wonderfully and fearfully made. I’m His. Just as you are His. You were uniquely, wonderfully, and fearfully made. You are an heir and walk in His authority.

I was bullying myself…

I was bullied as a kid, into my teen years, and even sometimes now (when people make fun of my size). I wrote a guest post on it not long ago.

But what scares me the most about bullying is the thought I had the other day looking in the mirror and going over everything I hate about myself. I was BULLYING myself. Imagine the shock that overcame me. I was just as bad as the others who would laugh at me as I passed by. Or the guy who wanted to meet me until he saw that I was fat and drove off without even getting out of his vehicle to talk to me. Or that other guy who told me he wouldn’t date me until I lost weight. (Bye Felicia!)

The point is not to relive these horrifying moments in my life but to make a point. I was bullying myself.

The thing is, every time you speak negatively about yourself, you’re bullying yourself. Bully, by definition is to “use superior strength or influence to intimidate (someone).”

We end up intimidating ourselves into believing that we’re ugly or unworthy of love or anything. If we could change this about ourselves, we’d be prettier, better looking, we’d fit in. That hair style would make me look better. I need to change this. I need to change that, and eventually, we start to BELIEVE that we can’t look better until we change. And this goes for everyone who has ever looked in the mirror and thought that about themselves – men, women, fat, average, or skinny. This is EVERYONE and ANYONE. It’s those who never thought they’d amount to anything. Those who wanted to belong but never felt like they could. Please, stop bullying yourself and start loving yourself.

Is it easy? Absolutely not. One of the hardest things I’ve ever had to convince myself of was that I was beautiful. I still see this fat, good for nothing, nobody in the mirror. No one wants to listen to me. No one wants to hear what I have to say, because well, look at me. I’m nobody, but then I’ll remind myself of what God has told me. I’m beautiful. I’m His. I’m somebody. And you are too!

It’s a long process to learning to love yourself, and you’ll have setbacks. I’m not saying that you can do this overnight, but once you start to speak positively and began the road to loving yourself, you’ll feel freer. It’s hard to put into words exactly how freeing it is.

So, please, stop bullying yourself and start to #loveyourself!

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