#youarenotalone: Jordan Elizabeth talks about depression and writing

Hey guys!

I know you haven’t heard from me in a while, and I’m terribly sorry for that. But life…

Anyway, today, Jordan Elizabeth, a fellow Clean Reads author, is guest posting on my blog today. Let’s give her a hearty welcome!

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I wouldn’t call myself a depressed person.  I wouldn’t call myself a sad person.  I have, though, struggled with depression and sadness in the past.  People always say to “let out your emotions through writing.”  When I’m sad, I’ve done that.  

My dog passed away nine years ago.  I was devastated.  At the time, she was my everything, and most days I found myself going through life with tears streaming down my cheeks.  I needed to express that emotion somehow, and yes, I did talk about it.  People said they understood what I was going through, and I’m sure they did – they too had lost beloved pets.  Their words didn’t help, though.  So, I sat down at my desk and started writing. 

I wrote about my grandmother, actually.  I had lived with her since I was 16 to help take care of her while she battled dementia.  The GOAT CHILDREN came about through my experiences with her.  Yes, much of it is fictionalized, but the emotion was there.  There were a lot of scenes I cut during the editing phase because they were too raw.  Rereading them brought all of that back. 

What does GOAT CHILDREN have to do with my dog?  Well, I gave the main character a little sister: Phebe.  Phebe was based off my dog.  At the end of the story, someone passes away, and I put all of my emotion over losing my dog into that.  I’ve had people tell me how the ending chapters made them cry because of all that emotion. 

Another time I wrote about sadness was when I broke up with my first official boyfriend.  That story is currently unpublished, but I shoved all that emotion into Tabitha breaking up with James, and I felt awesome about it.  I loved taking it all out on poor James.  Nah, he deserved it!

You’re probably wondering now what stories reflect my depression.

None of them.

I can’t write while depressed.  I close in on myself.  I ponder, and eventually I come out of it, but in the meantime, I can’t write anything.  The words are all stuck and emotionless.  Depression makes me numb.  I devote myself to marketing so that I know I’m still doing something, but it isn’t the same.  Maybe one day I’ll be able to write during my depressions, but in the meantime, I’ll write when I’m happy and when I’m sad, and if you cross me…well, you might show up someday as a villain.

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The Goat Children by Jordan Elizabeth

Thanks, Jordan. Have any of you experienced anything like this before? I have. Sometimes, it’s just hard to write. But there’s

always hope for brighter days ahead!

If you’re interested in learning more about THE GOAT CHILDREN, Jordan is running a Black Friday-Cyber Monday sale on it! Check it out on Amazon for 99¢.

 

 

 

More about Jordan:

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Jordan Elizabeth writes down her nightmares in order to live her dreams. When she’s not creating art or searching for lost history in the woods, she’s updating her blog. Jordan roams Central New York, but she loves to travel.

Visit Jordan’s website and learn more about her!

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Trick or Treat with the Authors!

Trick or treat with the authors.

**GIVEAWAY CLOSED**

Winners are Mary Easter and Karen Loomis!! Thank you all for entering!!

 

Happy Halloween, Readers!

And do I have a treat for you! Fourteen authors, including me, have come together to give you a treat for Halloween! And if you love to read, then you’ve come to the right place. (All of the reads are clean books, but I haven’t read them all. So I can’t vouch for each book on the clean rating.)

I’m gonna be honest though. I wish I could enter and win all of these amazing books!!

To enter, all you have to do is enter this giveaway! Two lucky winners will win a prize pack of ALL of the books below!! You have today and tomorrow to win.

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These are the books you’ll have a chance to win. Be sure to comment about your favorite prank while you’re here so you can automatically get an entry! Did you pull the prank or did it get pulled on you? Tell us all about it as part of the trick to get your treats!

(To learn more, click on the cover image to be directed to the buy page.):

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Caught in a maelstrom of intrigue and deception, should Marcus discover the awful truth of who caused his fall, he must choose between vengeance and forgiveness–a decision that will affect the fate of all the believers in Rome.
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Following clues left by his grandfather, with agents close at hand, Elliott desperately hopes to find a way to stop Project Alexandria. All of history past and yet to be depend on it.
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When Crown Prince Valdemar expresses interest in a commoner it ignites the fury of the powerful Paxel clan who had the kingship taken from them years before and feel the role of queen should be filled by someone more worthy. (Winner of a Readers’ Favorite Award in the category of Historical Christian Romance)
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Who wants to be stuck wearing a chicken suit on TV? 12-year-old Daisy De La Cruz, that’s who. She’ll do just about anything to get ahead in the entertainment industry, even if it means wearing embarrassing costumes. (Humorous MG for children 8-12)
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A dramatic thriller that takes you on a spiritual journey, where faith is tested and the truth is not what it seems.
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When Mari Stratton attends a New Year’s Eve party on the eve of 2019, she and four others are transported by a violent green storm into an alternate world—where her personal dreams come true and her nightmares are all too real.
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Only Serena can save her friends if she can discover the past her family has hidden her entire life – the reason why only she can see the goddesses. (FYI, this is my current read, and it’s good so far!)
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Oma sees the Goat Children everywhere, and as Keziah reads the stories Oma wrote about them, she begins to question if they really exist.
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Edna and Ike must make the kingdom trust them or stop the hags themselves, even if Ike is forced to embrace his dark heritage and Edna must surrender her family.
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To save the citizens of Arnn from becoming the witch’s next victims, Honoria must find the truth behind the woman’s madness.
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Hadley Daniels moves to a beach town and finds herself living next door to a teen TV star.
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Caroline is plunged into a world where travel to other realities is possible in the blink of an eye, and people can assume the forms of fearsome as well as familiar animals…and where love comes at the most unexpected times and places.
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To find their way back to the love they once had, they will have to be honest about who they are and learn that every journey to happiness is not easy or without heartache.
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Chrissi goes on a journey to the supernatural plane to find a cure for her curse.
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A YA Mythological Romance, A Retelling of Eros and Psyche.
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A middle grade fantasy adventure—a tale of a girl and her dragon.
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One faerie will go the distance to thwart a prophecy from coming true to save her kingdom.
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Myka has to come face-to-face with the truth of who she really is. Will she find safety, or will she always be hunted? (Book 2 in the Knight’s Academy series)
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If someone you loved vanished in a haunted warehouse, would you go in after them?
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Lainey Stratton didn’t mean to fall in love with a stranger she met on vacation. But when her world starts to fall apart, her vacation crush might be the only one who can save her.
A seventeen-year-old girl fakes her mom’s life in order to keep her little sister from going into foster care. Along the way she discovers things about herself, her cute next door neighbor, and most importantly her dead mother that changes the way she looks at life forever.